Quarter Life Crisis?

[flgurl84]

Well, good morning to all. Hopefully my posts start showing up
I am having a good morning, albeit strange. I am getting those nasty feelings that MWD warned about in her chapter in DR about MLC.
"So, if your husband decides to work on your marriage, although you’ll be very relieved, you should expect to be flooded with many other intense emotions. This is normal. It doesn’t mean you’ve made a mistake. It just means you’re human."
Now, H is FAR from deciding he wants to work on us but my despair and hopelessness has turned to anger, and I've lost my empathy for him. I think he is pathetic. HE built HIS house, HE started HIS business, HE asked me to marry HIM. This is the life he CREATED, with HIS OWN CHOICES, and now he is acting like a spoiled brat, like he doesn't want to play anymore.

I'd love to set some boundaries, as far as him coming and going from the house. I am unsure if I can though, legal my name is not on the deed, we live in FL and from what I understand it is a 50/50 state. So legally the house is half mine. Since I have no where else to go at this point, no money to go, and have my big dog, it would seem logical I stay in the house. He is the one who is waffling, he should leave, and not just barge in, turning our lives upside down again. I feel like he is an unwanted guest when he is there, or rather uninvited. I am coming to terms with being alone. I feel OK, watch my TV, read, listen to music, do chores, make food for myself, play with my Paw (Harley's nickname is Paw) and then Oh heres Daddy, and I have to play nice, listen to his work stories (that's all he ever talks about, its kind of pathetic, what a sad life) and then his anxiety kicks in and I have to be OK with him leaving.
I prayed this morning, thanked God for what I had, and asked him to watch over H. But I am mad. I hope this fades. I almost don't want to put anymore effort into it, but I just ordered 3 MLC/Marriage books and picked 2 up from the library. So I guess since I have them I must read them.
I need to pray for empathy. I need to re-read Heart'sBlessings threads. HB talked a lot about loving her husband with God's heart, and I am having a big problem with that. He has just become so irresponsible and wants to get rid of anything that he needs to "take care of". He is a joke to me.
Ugh just needed to vent. Hope my posts start showing up. Would love some advice.