Confusion Reigns Part 4

[reachingHigher]

Hi Angela.

I'm so very sorry about this revelation. . I wish so much I could drive down to see you tonight to help and lend a listening ear and a box of Kleenex. But I can't

But I can tell you I'm so sorry and I really care about how you feel.

The other posters have said some good thoughts to hold on to your sanity during this period of intense pain.

And I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you posted in pain.

Your H hurts so much inside. He doesn't even know what he is doing.

My H has forgotten much of what went on in replay. H just relies on my memory and says, oh so okay, that's how it was.

He doesn't even remember the occasional good times he and I had together. It's like a blank slate. Idk if that would be helpful for you to know that or not.

Two days ago he and I drove past a little resort town where we spent a 3-day weekend at a B&B, October 2011. it's where he told me if I would've already found someone else he would be "long gone". Where he said all he wanted to do was go to bars and have sex with OW's. Despite these painful revelations, we had a really nice time.

So, two days ago, when we drove by it, I said, excitedly, thats where we stayed! It was obvious H had no recollection of it at all.

So, somehow, when you think of your H right now, he isn't who he normally is. He is a man in crisis and you are a woman of integrity who loves him and is helping him through the worst demons he will ever face -- within him.