As crazy as it sounds, I am done chasing her. I am comfortable with the divorce. I am just going to be the best father to our two kids, and hope for the best. This divorce will likely happen, without any shadow of a doubt.
In fact, I even started going to singles mixer events, not to go on dates, just to be around other single people. I am now checked out emotionally from the marriage and am now at the point where she was about two years ago.
I have changed the relationship dynamic as best as I could. I opened escrow on a nice home in Studio City today and will be probably moving in there early December. At this point I never want to move back to the family home that I purchased before our marriage. In fact, this place is nearer her job and her place is nearer my job, so we have joked about passing each other on the freeway and giving the finger.
In the unlikely event that we reconcile, I think we should move into this new place and rent out the old home, but I don't want to live there any more.
I am still grappling with the prospect of her eventually dating someone else. I know this sounds terrible, but I'll be ok as long as I meet someone first. Then again, when that relationship fails, as they inevitably do, I'll want her back even more.
