Well that lasted a day. W sent a FB message earlier today to tell me that an event I was going to was cancelled. I just said I was disappointed and thanked her for the heads up.
Later in the afternoon, she said she had a question about her roommate. It was a pretty mundane question that didnt seem like it needed an answer from me of all people. The conversation lead to some discussion about how she feels though. Through a lot of validating and some probing we were able to discuss some of the following:
She doesnt feel sadness anymore, even in other situations which would have normally made her feel sad.
She doesnt really want to deal with her feelings, they take too much energy and time, neither of which she has now.
She is just occuupying her time now, always looking for something to do and never being able to really relax.
I asked if she thought she might be depressed or why she might be feeling so apathetic. She thought she might be. The only thing she knows is that she just wants to be held.
Being held is the only thing that makes her feel at peace. That OM just holds her and that brings peace. That is the only thing she looks forward to.
She apologized for telling me that, but that she has no one else to talk to who knows her or whos opinion she values. I told her that she didnt surprise me with those feelings, and thanked her for sharing even though it was awkward. I also asked if she had seen a IC yet. I told her that while I'm glad to talk to her, she needs someone she can talk to about things she might not be comfortable talking to me about. That she shouldnt have to apologize after sharing her feelings.
Several times she asked if apathy goes away or how to get rid of depression. I just told her I'm not the best source as I have my own things I'm working on. Counselors will help guide her, but ultimately its in her to find with their help.
me: 30 XW:28 tgthr:4 m:1 no kids BD: June 2013 D: Jan 2014
