PATIENCE PROMISCUITY AND PROFIDIOUSNESS

[Ambivalent]

Lois,

You did not hurt...really. And yes, those were feelings and thoughts. I was slapped in the face and I'm not naïve to think he wouldn't do it.

He's always been a flirt. He is horny and wants to f-ck. I know who he is.

He has pulled away from people he has confided in, that too is a sign.

But the receipt , being just a piece of paper...NO! It gives too much information. The photo on his meet up profile. It too tells me information, as well as his "interests". He created it on the 8th of Oct. By the 17TH, he was in Lord & Taylor purchasing those items at 9:30 at night.

He was absent for 10 days of contact with me, it WAS during this time...again...I'm of above average intellect and even someone with lower intellect can add this up.

It is what it is. It svcks and I'm still smarting. Like I said, I'll wait until after January to see where I'm going. I would say standing a year is good enough for me.

I'm not a masochist, and a year is a good enough example to my daughters. He'll just have to deal with the natural consequences of his current behavior.

One of the things he liked about me was that I didn't take his sh!t. That was from a conversation of why he liked me, from when we were dating.

I have to respect myself as well. I do not believe I could keep my self-esteem if I allowed him to play in both camps. I also don't know that if he made a sexual advance that I could act on it. Why? Because I won't know where it has been, was it protected, and would I be subjecting myself to high risk behavior.

This is a very real possibility. Even though I want to be intimate, how damaging would it be if I had to reject his advances ? It would destroy any progress made.

So after the holidays, I'll confront.

If he wants to discuss finances and getting a budget together, I'll agree to that but I'll insist on having my name put back on the joint checking account. This way I too know what money is coming and going and to where.

Right now he is the only one that has access to that knowledge.

Just a thought.