Living apart 6 weeks in

[Rockwallaby]

I have checked in from time to time and have not posted regularly. Life has been a bit of a roller coaster and I have been flat out at work and getting my house back in order after WAS left in May and moved her belongings out in July. It is slowly coming together and has taken a lot of time away from my cycling. When I have the kids there is a lot of talking and supporting as S8 is finding it difficult to adjust to living with OM and WAS.

I am still working on detachment, I know I have a long way to go as I still get angry with emails she will not speak by phone and uses emails and texts). I will not reply by email or text unless it is straightforward as it all gets misconstrued. It is not good and I am not making contact and only limited responses to electronic communication.

Yesterday she emailed to ask say I could spend my birthday evening with the children if I wanted and then asked if we could swap our schedule the weekend before I leave for Australia with the children. I really resent the way she positions something as a good gesture but is really only wanting to get something she wants, that is a change in the schedule later. I have replied by saying lets just leave the schedule as it is, I will celebrate with the kids over the weekend. I remaindered her she has not acknowledged my email with changes to her proposed schedule for the children in 2014.

I guess the details are not important, what I beat myself up is still being disappointed when she acts this way, and still feeling angry about it. I mustn't let her actions affect the way I feel.

Positive steps, I have started a diet 5:2 to shed some weight and am keen to get out on my bike again and training. Very keen to shed 15 kg. I am doing loads with kids and they are happy with me D5 has been really sweet all weekend and S8 is loving cooking with me, we do a great Spag Bol.

WAS views me as angry, so I need to pull back and be calm, but also be strong as she will try and exert control as she always has.