Ambivalent,
Just checking to see how you are doing today. I hope you can find a way to breathe and settle down a bit.

I know that you are feeling very angry, hurt and disappointment w/your h, but you've got to let him go. He needs to focus on his journey to figure things out. There's nothing you can do to change his journey and if you do attempt to do so, his journey will take longer. If you attempt to "snap him out of it", he may return for a while and appear normal, but eventually he will go back into crisis and it will be worse the second time around.

Your journey is to help you to become a stronger, more independent person and yes, rediscover the person you were pre-marriage. It is to help you better understand yourself and you will be far wiser than you are today.

I do hope that you will find the strength to walk the path for a while longer and put your faith in the system. It does work.

Take care.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.