If you want additional info on "affair down" descriptions, I have a friend who has her own site that has an excellent description of "affair down" and I would be happy to copy/paste the description here for you. Unfortunately, I can't give you her site because of the rules here on the forum.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
