She's gonna make it.....

[RosaLinda]

Hi Cadet! I hope H does NOT think I'm an american version of RT, as he describes her as bitchy, aggressive, self centered and conceited. He has never mentioned her cheating on him, but she had to get that VD from another man. Yet I'm the cheat, sigh.....

I know you are feeling discouraged Rose. I'm not sure why your H is so gung ho on getting divorced so quickly. We can all see your changes, it is so discouraging that your H is still making accusations against ypu. It's been hard to live with a man who does not love me all these years, but I am grateful that he's still here. Thanks for your encouraging words of hope for my future. I have hope for you too my friend. I'm a firm believer in "it's not over until they're remarried!"

Thanks for your encouragement also, Nero and SweetRed. I AM feeling better Nero. No so depressed, more positive. But a little strange. I'm having a hard time putting on the "lovely wife" persona as per DB Coach Chuck. I'm afraid I'm not really feeling at all sweet today Red.  But I do feel sort of confident. I guess I'm back in that "don't care as much" detached mode. That in itself can get depressing. 

H and I were just watching a comedy about a man covering up an affair and I asked him if he is taking notes. Not like me at all, not DBing at all. Pretty bitchy in fact

He seemed to take it in stride though, and kept watching the movie. Luckily his memory is so shot from the Lymes/MLC combo that he probably won't remember it by tomorrow anyway. 

Thanks for the info about paranoia and delusions from Lymes Ellie. H has been feeling so sick that he made an appointment with his specialist tomorrow. 

Unfortunately I probably will not be permitted to accompany him. He hasn't let me come since I told them he was feeling depressed. H told the doc he would not take ADs even if he prescribed them, and did not speak to me for awhile.

Well I'm on the overnight shift tonight. Thanks for checking on me, you're the best friends!