Me 1 year on pt2.

[hotwheelsaust]

TTD180, you hit the nail on the head, once back home it will allow me more chance to discuss or work through things with both the boys and other friends. GALing will also allow a lot of things to be fixed or not worried about.
A lot of things I say replying to MrBond for example is not "oh poor me" it is just simply trying to state what is affecting me at the moment.
I know I have some good people to speak to through the forum, but sometimes we just want someone there and then.

"I have issues at times, not just issues with the sitch, general day to day ones. It hurts to not talk to people about them."

So do it. Nothing's stopping you.

Ok, here goes. Last night my flatmate, the one I have to share with as the school owns the property, advised me if I don't leave the first day after school finishes, there will some physical problems. You get the drift. This is an arrogant flatmate that feels he does no wrong. Who doesn't like I have all the family furniture and belongings in the house. Who simply doesn't like a bookcase in the loungeroom. Who doesn't like all the garage stuff all stored in one storage room in the garage. Who owns a bed and a laptop, so isn't being stopped from having his belongings put someone else. He is quite comfortable using all my kitchen appliances (which I am ok with) but then whinges about the space they take up. Who feels it is his duty to complain about how dirty the house was when he moved in (it wasn't) and how dirty it still is, even though I vaccum, mop and wash up twice a day. While he doesn't. He was quite comfortable telling me everything that is wrong with me, what I do, how I behave. He told me how inconsiderate I am to a flatmate, I asked what I have been inconsiderate about, and it just seems to be my belongings taking up space and how I always have an answer that blames others (?). I simply cannot move my stuff anywhere else, without it costing a huge amount of money, that I don't have. I cannot sell the stuff as it is still going through the solicitors. And in all honesty, it is simply typical furnuture that belongs in a loungeroom, nothing else. I have 6 weeks left to simply put up with this. I stood my ground, I didn't whimper and let him just talk over me. But, he is a very big person (bodybuilder) someone who really is a bully. If I complain to the housing section or my principal at this stage, it will cause more issues. At the moment the easiest way is to simply agree, yes I will move asap (which I want to do anyway) and leave it as is. I want to talk to someone about this, but I have no one. Some of his comments he said, would have come from a teacher friend. So again, you wonder who you can simply talk to anymore.
On top of having to deal with my sitch for the last year, the losing of my family and friends, putting up with this SOB for the last year has been an absolute nightmare, when I get talked to like this. When you get told by the W all your issues and then have other people (flatmate) tell you how bad you are (in their mind) it is hard to be positive. It is hard to feel that you have or are improving. Sometimes it makes you feel you are not achieving anything positive. When you go through the last few months thinking that I am respecting my flatmate with regards to cleaning, noise, simply courtesies etc. Then getting told I am not, I just wonder what else do I need to do. Or do I just continue to think this is his problem?

Anyway as I said, 6 weeks and I don't have to deal with him and his issues anymore. But it is hard to come back from my son's 21st, knowing I wasn't part of the family that I used to be. Having the family act as though nothing is wrong. Feeling downbeat walking back from the airport to walk inside the house and cop this. To then think I have no one to simply sit down and discuss this with. That is what I mean when I say "I have no one to talk to".
I am just trying to get through this chapter in my life, It is one of those horrible nasty chapters.