thanks alotg for checkin - in. me too, i get a "dose" of friendship and comraderie in life by coming here - before going about my day. oh nooooo- another addiction.. ta da
i know too, the figureing things out- it's a v bad m.o. it sure doesn't change anything - knowing wtf it's about (usually).
habit (bad habit) of a lifetime- who knows, i'm slowly (maybe - hopefully) getting cured of it. i was thinking today i've worried a lifetime worth and it accomplished absolutely notin.
kind of "freeing" to realize it with certainty. i don't even feel bad or anyting, just notice it- acknowledge it - and let it blow on by, knowing i'll do better in future. i'd say daily - i am doing begtter with the not worrying.
that was long long beforfe i began to realize that it was pointless and most stuff either never heppened- or didn't matter once it did. we do just have to accept and deal and move on.
oh well huh? wisdom of age???
i think now that i'm here i don't have mjch of anhthing useful to say . just had some company- friend whose mom'd died couple weeks ago in europe. - her ex is nuts (literally) and probably frying his brian with insecticides??? aorund his house (he has delusions about bugs attacking!!) omg...
anyway- nice to see her- she's okay but quite a downer - draining - glad to be me now . neice upstairs editing her paper- worked all afternoon here on it- nice to have someone around.
i miss it alot. i can make do alone - even realy really sought alone time when we'd lived together for 20 or so yrs, have lived to regret that; it's an amazing thing in life- what you want, what you hate once you get it- getting just exactly the right amount of whatever, not too much (ha) and not too little (ha).
i'm not even picky and high-maintenance- and i can't manage to get it rite now.
oh well huh???(big time).
it's an awfully pretty afternoon & planted the last rose - thank goodness. hyou'd think i was working on solution to world peace - where the heck to plant the darn roses....
- maybe i can get neice to walk over and visit mom with me- she's a pretty good egg about it- glad to have my little buddy (well 15 - not little at all- but a very nice young lady beginning to be a babywoman) - thank goodness for her
that's all folks- hope youall have a nice afternoon & make it peacefuly (?) thru another evening & nite.
