Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

I have also realized that she has lost respect for me and doesn't trust me. She hasn't said that to me but I know by my past actions, that is what happened.

When all this started, I asked my self why this Is happening to me again. I thought of my self as a good/nice guy. I was different from most men, I knew how to treat women. Why would they want someone that would treat them like crap? Why did they like the bad boy image? I found a book on line, No more mr nice guy, i ordered it and read it in two days. It was an eye opener, I understood for the first time why I acted and thought the way I did. The problem is there is what I think is a long process to be inter grated, a lot of going to the past and examine what happened in you childhood. I like the 180 approach much better. I know what faults I have and do 180 of that, so easy. Just wish my wife would stick around to see me transform. I did tell her that I could become the man she needed me to be in time, and wouldn't she want to be the one to reap the benefits instead of some one else.