Quarter Life Crisis?

[flgurl84]

Well, Just had a talk with the H. He was leaving to go to his friend's house to spend the night. I asked him what we were doing here (as in us). He said he wasn't sure. We cried. It was a good talk for the most part, but he is still maintaining that our house give him anxiety, and place that he is for too long gives him anxiety, and that he wants to be alone. I told him that although I loves the house, I hated it, that I felt like I had no place that was my own. We talked about the future, and he "worst case scenario" (his words) if we have to D is to get me house, he would rent out our house, build a house in the mountains and rent that, because "this house does nothing for me, it doesn't make me any money." He also said he still had to figure out the business taxes and pay our debt before D. I asked if he wanted to get rid of me that quick, he said not at all. When I asked him about what he wanted for his future, he just said he wants to be alone, he likes to be alone and that was all he knows. He said he would always be there for me, but I told him he couldn't, that there were things I wanted out of life and I would have to move on. I meant as far as relationships, sex intimacy, romance. I didn't have to list them, he knew what I meant. I also told him that I felt in my heart that something was going to wake up in him and he would say to himself, Oh yeah that is that beautiful women I love and want to be with for the rest of my life. We laid on the bed and cried. He still left. I don't know what to think. I feel so lost. I told him I missed spending time with him. He said we would have dinner tomorrow night. I tried giving him options to move out, or me to move out, but it really isn't an option at this point.
I miss my best friend. I miss my partner. I am not sure I am strong enough for this. I can't believe this is happening to me, to us. I thought we were so much stronger than this. I feel so awful.