We all went to church as a family. Today was all saints day so we lit candles for those who had passed the last year, including my FIL. W and I sat next to each other. She leaned over and asked if I would light the candle. I agreed to do so of course.

Upon returning home, W has done laundry and been real busy cleaning. Could be guilt, could be something else.

I'm not sure what to make of it all. It was a real honor to stand up front with her mother and our family and light the candle in his memory.

I am feeling like I can't stop myself from grabbing her. Ten months of true separation is starting to wear on me. Can a man get a hug!!!! lol

M - 42
W- 37
S's - 9,6
M-12
T-14
FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011
ILYBNILWY - march '12
FIL - died jan '13
W Moved out week later