So, W actually came to church today. She wore her rings, and asked me to hold her hand as we walked in because she wanted people to know we were together, and sat very close to me with her hand on my leg.
Afterward, she asked if she and kids could come with us for lunch, and we just threw in a couple of pizzas at my house. I went to the movie room and put a movie in for S5, and came back up, and W was nowhere to be found. Finally went upstairs, and she was lying in our bed, all covered up. She said she wanted to "do stuff" with me (big wink) and take a nap, and asked me to snuggle her, so I did. It was nice. I decided no hanky panky, so we just slept for an hour or so. Its weird how good you sleep with someone!
She said she called OM again, and texted asking to talk, but he isn't responding so she thinks he knows what's up. I asked to see her phone, and she immediately handed it to me, and said I could look at whatever I wanted, and she isn't deleting anything, and if she was I would be able to tell because the cell bill wouldn't match up. She seems to be going WAY out if her way to try to be transparent.
Next week is going to be crazy busy, so we'll have a lot of apart time, probably until Saturday, so I think that'll be good.
Somewhere on here I read that a WAS often will want to be back in as quickly as they left... W is disgusted with herself, told me what she did is inexcusable. She will break down in tears randomly if I just compliment her or something minor, and come over and kiss me and say, "I'm SO sorry for hurting you." It is weird, but she begged me to please never do an A to her, because she said she'd probably lose her mind.
Oddly enough, we have abruptly switched spots. She pursues, initiates contact, talks about counseling, etc. She even bought 5LL, a book for me on surviving affair, and a book for her on fixing an affair...
