W is awful interested in my activities for some reason. I expect a full round of crap tonight again. As I got up this morning to take family dog out, I came back in to find that she had been through my text messages. She laid there in the bed so innocently as I walked back into the bedroom and asked me about how cold it was outside. I chose not to confront her or ask anything. I truly have nothing to hide except for this forum.
S10 and I went to Sunday school slone, leaving W and S12 at the house. We actually walked to church and had a great talk along the way. Lesson and following sermon were about dealing with difficult people in our lives. Very appropriate.
Good news. My relationship with S10 is really blooming. I have never been as close to him as I am right now. We are polar opposites, but we are learning to appreciate our special time together. I am incredibly grateful for that.
Bad news. I laid in bed this morning watching her sleep. I am having the hardest time detaching from her physically. I want to hold her, touch her, feel her warmth. I feel an incredible urge to reach out to her. She is an incredibly beautiful, sexy woman.
Evil thoughts. I understand how important physical touch and closeness is to me. I feel myself aching for something. I felt myself wondering how long I can stand this before I fall victim to desiring the physical touch if another woman. How do I control that? It's not just the desire to ML, it's everything.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
