FY, thanks as always. Well, I had a little breakdown in front of W... After being pretty dim about our R, I broke down and told her I still had feelings for her ((ILY, oops... which made her quite uncomfortable) and wanted to get our family back together. So there... I've pursued again and as I've known for months, it did nothing.
Thankfully, I had no real expectations and I got myself back together fairly quickly. It taught me that W really thinks D is the best option for life right now no matter what b/c she's more committed to someone new. Of course it's sad for me, but it was good to hear b/c it confirmed that everything DB is about is totally right. I was able to be turned down without being put on a roller coaster. I'm feeling fine and strong at the moment. This is thanks to DBing I believe.
I'm going to go back to dim and continue living my life as I have been. I'm doing some great stuff in life and whatever happens, happens. I feel ready for anything. It's just too bad that W doesn't have any desire to try to start over with me and get our family together. It's where she's at for now I guess.
Honestly though, I don't know her anymore and the more new people I meet the more I realize how lost she is - the more it makes me more open to starting over with someone new, though I know no road will be easy and without its own trials.
ETC
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
