Hmmmm your post is still a lot about you and your feelings, you went on a date (while professing love for your W) to make you feel better, you want your W back to make you feel better, you spend time doing things "enjoy myself and my kids with the hope that it positively influences my W" See what I mean?
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I love my wife more than the day I married her, even with the affair and current state of our relationship...she is my sunshine and the most incredible mother..I don't ever want to be without her in my heart.
So, if your W came to you today and said I'm filing for D, would what you wrote still be true? Do you love her enough to give her what she needs?
Read Codependent No More, it might shed some light on things.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
