Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

Oldest son from first marriage called Friday night, he's in the marines and stationed out in cali. I told him what was going on and he said if she was not going to be home for christmas that he would come home. He also told me that what ever I do, do the exact same thing to my youngest son as I did for him. I asked what that was and all he said was that what i did meant more to him than what I will ever know. Talk about wanting to make a grown man cry. I thought I totally screwed up with him.

This is my second marriage, and it pretty much mirrors my first. Both wives worked second shifts around mostly men. I tried to give them everything they wanted to make them happy. Both mlc. I realize that what I've been doing is the reason they fell out of love with me.

I feel that god is giving me a second chance because I didn't learn the lessons that I was suppose to from the first time.