Where am I at?

[melissag]

So sorry you are going through this. I have only been DBing for about a month, and it is HARD. It can make a big difference, though. Good for you for GAL. As for what your W is thinking - nobody here knows either. I keep reminding myself that I cannot control my H, nor can I read his mind. So there is no point in letting your imagination run wild. I know that is easier said than done, but you have to focus on YOU, and not her.

One other thing - you are not 100% to blame for this. It is good that you recognize and acknowledge your role in where your M is now, but do not beat yourself up about it. The past cannot be changed. Just focus on personal growth and the future, even if you can only look at one day at a time.

Good luck!