PATIENCE PROMISCUITY AND PROFIDIOUSNESS

[Ambivalent]

Thanks guys,

I'm exhausted and have to go to school.

I feel numb. I really don't think I'm going to be able to stay the course. I'm going to give myself a set amount of time. Your are right , he doesn't have any coping device.

I cannot live with someone who turns to this type of medication. It is too dangerous for me.

Part of sex and making love is trust. I have no trust again. I don't want to get a devastating disease, I'm 53 ! I don't want to have added anxiety that every time things get tough, he gets going...

What a horrible way to live one's life! I deserve better, and if better is peace and not fear then so be it.

I'll hang on until after the holidays and hunting season is completed. I'll need to take my finals, and then state boards.

I AM angry. You know I started school as part of a solution to our financial challenge. To be able to contribute to our future.

I listened to him , heard him , and acted. Now I find myself in the most stressful situation in my life. My marriage seems to have been one major stress after another.

I'm exhausted by all of this, and I'm exhausted from always trying.

I just don't understand why God would put that receipt in my path? What is the point? To tell me to let go of my vows to He and my husband?

I took my normal dosage yesterday, because I was feeling so well. Not today, I think I better keep it up for awhile.

I hate life right now. I hate that I can't be with one of my daughters because I couldn't hide this from her. I hate that I can't be with my other daughter because she is so narcissistic .

I can't tell anyone. Yes you guys are here , but I need physical touch right now . I need to be loved and I'm not by the person who I thought did.

I'm so disgusted at my decision in choice of a man.

He is so right , I do hate him . Not the passionate close to love type of hate. But the numbing , slowly growing, aversion.

When I feel that way , looking into his eyes will be very difficult. For my eyes can't lie.