PATIENCE PROMISCUITY AND PROFIDIOUSNESS

[Whiterose]

I'm so sorry ambiv, this must have been such an awful day for you. I hope you're able to get some sleep and just rest your head for a while.

Like the ladies said, breath, feel what you need to feel, and breath again. Walk, run, throw a pillow at the wall......

You are NOT filthy. His use of those women was. I wonder how I could have brought children into the world for this man. I, sometimes, feel like an idiot for ever thinking I could trust him after he left me the first time. Now, at night, I thank God for him for giving him to me so I could have my boys. You're not there yet, I'm not really either but I'm faking it till I make it right now, just remember you have your beautiful daughters and if this is what you get out of this then it was the best prize ever. My sister reminded me of that. She said they're the prize. I looked at her funny.....she said he's lost the ability to see that in the end children that love, respect and trust him are the prize. I keep that as my "end game" now. It's no longer, well most of the time anyway, about my marriage it's about my happy, loving children and a healthy me.

You're trust is broken, of course it is, but he did that....not you. You never asked for this.....it has nothing to do with us (this is what I'm told and try to remember I the über bad days).

Hugs!!!!