Slow down. It's like you've just had a heart attack this very afternoon and you are already planning to do step aerobics tomorrow. Don't get ahead of yourself right now.
Stay in this moment.
You are NOT a bad wife or mother.
Good women, good wives, good mothers get cheated on. Everyday. It happens. It's like saying that Jackie Kennedy was to blame because JFK was a man whore. No one is calling her a bad parent or bad wife. She did the best she could and so are you.
You also aren't stupid. A lot of smart women love damaged men. I'm one of them.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson