I've gone from the depths of despair to the height of hopefulness to putrid perfidy. Just as I was gaining in humility and truly feeling some growth
-WHAM-
I was seeing some progress and I guess it is just more b.s.
I cannot trust anything and I don't want to hear about how lonely he is. How he misses me and the dogs. @@
My compassion is about used up. I don't know if I can ever get over this.
My father cheated on my mom, I was 12 when it started and I never got over that.
I cried walking down the wedding aisle because of the fear of repetition. It was so traumatic. His father did the same thing to his mom.
The chances for us have got to be slim to none at this point.
I'm sick to my stomach and feel as dirty as he, because I know. So everything he says to me is a lie, and I cannot trust anything . I have to believe everything he does has some ulterior motive. It's just mind numbing.
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
