just wrote to you on your thread - big ole bunch of preachie stuff- dont' fold on me now man.
and yeah- you are positive influence - aintja proud?
it's a giant suckeroo for sure- allll of it . big fat unfair bunch of $hit- why in the heck perfectly nice girls like us end up in this crapful position- who can figure.
are we really REALLY supposed to believe there's some reason? idk- more like the random bad junk floating around in the universe that just bumps into things -= like us.
uh hem...how comforting huh? thinking of self as just some old discarded soda can on the road of life= tossed & squashed for no particular reason- other than bad timing/luck. ta da---- i feel soooo special
idk- one more rose bush to plant- probably waited so damn long it'll croak and get frozen - hopefully not- but who the heck knows. i'm hoping it will have a month of okay weather to get started in -
just spoke to h- he's such a putz - i can tell from his stupid voice he's "busy" watching tv? computer? doin ow? idk- why call if he's kind of not interested ??/ i am soooo sick of being a stupid voice on the stupid phone-
oh well- i will not think - - i will not think - - i will not think...i'm outta here- neice here working on a paper andme floating around being - well , what & who i am....
