don't let this get you too down- they are a bunch of lying sacks of $hit- donja know???
i mean- i am sooooo messy it ruined his life (wtf???) i didn't ask when i cut my hair (note - MY hair - MY HEAD)!!WTF/
GOD ALONE knows what stupid dopey other $hit he's made up & believes - he tells everyone alive that will lsiten and can't outrun him - moronic junk like i don't cook, dress him funny, "make him do this, make him do that, made him quit smoking-
i don't even remember it all. allll lies- allllll insane - and who knows, i think he does believe it too.
it's sad and it's unfair and it makes me sick- blame blame blame
what the heck can we do about it but scratch our heads and wonder and try and laugh about it - if even to each other.
it's soooooooo TYPICAL mlc BEHAVIOR IT'S SCARY.
they are scary- don't let it make you lose heart. the business of having heart and standing is about you. in this world of mlc where IT'S ALLLLLLL ABOUT THEM * * * *
THIS is what we have that is about us- our hearts, our knowledge of who we are- who *(and what???!!!) they are- and the difference.
you know in your heart what is true. soooo a bunch of his croneys and stupid pos rt think what he says is true- maybe - but only maybe - just cause he manages to delude himself. so does my h - maybe -.. nobody is sayin it works on the rest of the thinking universe..
we don't really know tho, do we. maybe deeeep down inside they actualy do know or have an inkling- hence their anger toward us sometimes - the nerve of us being honest and true and making them pissesd off because they are "not good enough" . or not as good AS US , when it comes to honesty,& loyalty, etc.
it's a twisted thing i think- and i'm being honest. i get bummed too- feel totally sold down the river and convicted of a crime i didn't do-
the only thing i do have is my own knowlewdge of me and sitch- and then, there are my own friends that KNOW ME> LIKE YOU_ - your friends know you, know what's true or likely to be true- and that is that.
it's your vindication. convincing a crazy person not to be crazy just isn't possible usually not while they;re in the middle of being crazy.
THINK THO, ABOUT IT- you're bummed because someone who was crazy - who did exactly what your h is doing now- ACTUALLY IS TELlING US ABOUT - REALIZING IT- SEEING THE TRUTH - FEELING THE SORROW AND HEARTACHE OF CAUSING THE PAIN THEY DId-
IN OTHER WORDS- THEY MANAGED ;TO COME ALIVE and know what they did, what they said - and see it for the lies it was.
soooo- it's a good thing- to think there's hope of that- rather than getting too bummed and disabled by it all.
perk up man - you're ole ms. perky here- you can do this, you can positive yourself out of it. you can't let a glimpse of the dark side scare you into getting off your journey- those lies and crap are HIS JOURNEY - not yours. if it's a crucial part to lie his stinkin head off- it's on him- not you.
and as for anyone that believews it- well, they are saps who don't even know you - we do not give a rats A what they think. of anything... much less our character.
- stop & breath &^ get the heck busy telling yourself that in the end- the "right things" will happen in your life. and the truth will win out- if we don't all believe that- why in the world would we all go around being honest anyway? either it really does matter - or we wouldn't bother - rite??? i'm askin ya.
i hope you're feeling okay and make it thru this black hole of doubt - you will, i know it.
there is no way in the world that lies ever ever ever lead someone to happiness and success. no way that people dealing with a liar just believe and believe - no matter what they're hearing the poor deluded guy say. somehow lies have a way of coming back to trap the liar. (and make themselves known) people just know- he's probably not really fooling anyone that matters at all. i'd even guess - least of all himself (well, if not now, in the end) anyway.
ya know? i'm just sayin; as you're always pointing out to me- look at and appreciate the good news in this message - and don't glom onto the negtive side- it will draw it to you (ha - ta da) i know a secret , donja know....you do too! rite???
