Ambivalent, I'm sorry you are having to deal w/these findings today. You have to remember that the ow is just a symptom of depression/crisis. She's nothing more than a baindaid, just as alcohol, drugs, gambling, etc. are.
I know you are hurting badly, but please breathe! Come here to talk.
Please let us know if you are okay. Whatever you do, don't make any decisions for at least 24-48 hours. You don't want to say something that you can't take back.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
