I Believe it Cause I Feel It

[Whiterose]

Job, I'm in a fog today.....I know it will pass but it feels so oppressive today. The present is miserable and awful and I want to run from it as fast as I can. My own little MLC day??:)

I'm not quite sure how he won't end up regretting what he's already done. From the moment they BD how can they not end up regretting it? He's weak in mind and spirit. I think he always has been. Jealous and angry will make you weak and unable to see things the way they are. I think it's why he blamed his parents for so many things wrong in our lives now......is that bad of me to say?

S18 has come to the conclusion that dad is a write off other than as a man he sometimes has contact with. I'm worried S14 thinks he can convince him to come home for Christmas and then when he can't will slip further away. It's all just strange to me that he wanted nothing to do with him and then out of the blue, after a christmas conversation with me, he calls his dad.

H works with coasters.....I need to get off and let him continue riding the bumps!! lol