There's a wind and rain warning here this weekend, kinda brought me down further. I have some work to do this weekend and so am hanging around the house. I went onto H's FB, through son's acct, and noticed he has started deleting pics of me and some of the ones of us together. Still has some up there but has started the deletion process....I know it shouldn't surprise or affect me but it does. More than I like actually which makes me feel like a failure even more. I'm sad today, again, and don't know what to do with all of it.
I have read, and followed, rH's stitch. I just don't see it in my future.....I see it as their happy story but don't think my H will ever change his mind. I think it would be too hard for him to admit what he's done and make the changes necessary to be able to restore our family. He is just so, so angry with me......he hates me or maybe is indifferent to me? which is why he doesn't talk to me? I don't even know what he feels/thinks actually.
My GP gave me a copy at the appt so I have it in hand. I'm starting the process of getting him reassessed as well. Meeting with his teachers not this coming Wednesday but next. He called his dad yesterday, talked for 10 mins, and then messaged him a couple of times. Don't know if he's talked to him today as he volunteered this am and is now at my sister's house as my nephew and he are going to a friend's birthday party tonight. I asked him what made him call his dad and he said he hadn't talked to him in a while and H wanted to know how he was doing. I asked what they talked about "nothing much just how it was going" I'm noticing a pattern with him. At first he would go with his dad and come home with his allowance or some other thing he wanted. Called him a week before thanksgiving and then talked about Christmas with me on Halloween so I'm wondering if he thinks H will come home for christmas? He said he loves "how everyone is together and happy" at christmas. He's also slept in my bed two nights in a row which he has done on and off since this all started.....mostly off though. Sometimes, when I'm baking, I'll ask him for his help and sometimes he wants to and sometimes not. Really, depends on video games:)
UGG this weather is not helping my mood:(
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