Rolling up my sleeves...

[Ambivalent]

I think that I want to be a great role model for my sons. I want to be a steady rock in the stormy seas of life for my family. In my professional life, I care for other people's children on a daily basis. I help to guide them and provide stability in their lives. I want to bring that same energy to my own life and my own family.

This is a worthy goal, one that can and will be achieved. Don't beat yourself up to much over the love issue.

There are many forms of love and we didn't come with manuals.

It is also primal for men to focus on shelter, hunting, and protection.

It is primal for women to nurture, nest, and organize. Yes there are exceptions, but mostly this is where we are.

Men tend to be big picture and big gifts, women the opposite.

So forgive yourself, learn, and grow!

Your boys are watching, she IS watching, not so much during replay, but every now and then they notice.

Hugs to you and I'm glad you are looking within. It isn't an easy thing to do, nor is watching their behaviors..<:}