Can't deal with XW now. Don't know it's even worth it. She's became this thing hell bent on revenge, wanting to hurt more than wanting to heal. It's almost physcotic.

She sees that I'm hurting over D4. Probably relises it. No. She thinks I deserved it.

Kept on saying the 10 years of hurt I gave her. I told her my regrets and would change things in the past if I could. Apologize too.

What the hell she wants? Why even bring up other things when it is only about the kids. I have already shut the hell up on her EA. Whatever I saw, I didn't even tell her family.

I only want to be with my kids. I want to be in their life as much as possible. Not too much to ask. D4 only came running to me and gave me a half hearted hug when I leave. It's already 2 weeks of such treatment.

I seriously don't think being tough on her will work now.

M35 XW34
D5 D4
M 6years T 10years
Bomb 5/2013
Joint Petition signed 6/2013
Moved out end of 8/2013
Court Hearing of Joint Petition 9/2013
D finalized in 3 months - no news yet