Will respond more tomorrow. W did say tonight she would "go to counseling tomorrow if we could", her idea, not mine. I was glad she brought up. She also put her rings back on.
I joked with W about still having her maiden name on Facebook, and that if she changed back, it was gonna create quite a stir since so many friends have been praying and rooting for us. She said she wasn't going to until she talks to OM because she didn't want to hurt him. She disabled her account in front of me as a compromise, said she didn't want it to be an issue and said she called today, but when he called back, he only had a few seconds. I know Facebook is stupid, but the hesitation confused me because she's about to cut off all communication for the rest of her life with him. She said the PA was her fault and it was bad enough she let it happen and made him think they might have a relationship, then abruptly ended it, and then they have only talked twice since, so it's going to be a bit of a shock. I don't like it frankly but I'm trying to appreciate that the old W would've not even said anything or taken any responsibility. She did say again after she talks to him, she will give all passwords, access to phone records, she will call me every day she's not on schedule and tell me where she is, etc. I guess her absolute willingness to give me anything I want is a positive?
She said she was going to tell him she loved me, she was deeply and unshakably committed to me 100%, and she would never leave our marriage.
She came to show me her ring, and told me to please be patient, and that would not regret it, as she would do counseling, dating, whatever it took to make things right.
I want to be super happy, but I feel pretty dead right now. Almost no emotion at all. Maybe just because of the last few days.
