So lost and hurt #3

[indigo1]

There is no way she would believe that, honest I don't know that I do either. I'm just digging with that one I suppose. As far as the money deal, I know that it's her problem and I guess I'm just hoping that helping her would help me look better in her eyes. On the other hand it's just money and probably would just do nothing to help me.

I'm at the point now where one day I have the strength to completely detach then the next I get weak and start thinking about W again and ways to get her back. I trying really hard to just focus on me and have come along way in seeing where I went wrong. I feel a little better about myself every day and get a bit stronger. Some of the hurt still remains. I know I'm not far off, I just need to stay the path and listen to all the good advise you guys give me.