The Big Chill

[Whiterose]

You know it's funny Pud I look at some other H's and see the characters I really wanted in a H......mine was unable/unwilling to be for me.

A big one for us was dinner. Most of our married life I did ALL the cooking, and I do enjoy it, I don't want to be responsible for it everyday. My part-time tenant now cooks one night a week. He rents a room, while working in town 4 days a week, and he cooks for me and the boys one night and I cook a second night. When he goes home to his family he does a majority of the cooking and I think to myself "wow, is that what it's like?" My H used to tell me he married an Italian so he wouldn't have to come home from work to cook, clean, etc. I used to feel so guilty, and then angry, that I couldn't get him to take even one night a week. I used to say millions of people come home from work and make dinner! Now, I think, you need to figure dinner out every day and I get someone that takes one night a week! Lol. And although he's not my H one day, maybe, I can find one that can take over......and I kinda like it! Lol. OR there can be a miracle and my H will see it wasn't as bad as he thought and come home?? Oh who knows what I want!?!?!?

I've come to the conclusion our journey can be as exhausting as theirs. We'll take it moment by moment Pud:)