Also, in general I have become more confrontational lately...more like the version of myself from 10-15 years ago. I would call it "short tempered in the presence of inappropriate behavior."
Last weekend I had two engagements with strangers, certainly above my average. I'm not out looking for fights or to cause trouble, I just have always been wired in a way that if I see something wrong, I feel the call to jump into action to correct it. I suppose that's partly the Marine in me.
And that isn't inherently a bad thing, but - to be honest - with these two engagements that were reactions to the actions of strangers, there was certainly some initial anger in me...that *snap* that occurs when my toleration cup is full/overflowing and it's simply time to square things away. Add in the presence of my kids and my cup fills up that much faster.
But it's the initial acting out of anger part is out of my norm, I guess is what I'm trying to say.
The first instance I handled fine and got the response I was looking for. The second time I ended up handling myself fine, but I shouldn't have reacted that way initially and haven't reacted that way in a while.
Perhaps the events of last Friday night - telling D's about the D - have been affecting me more than I consciously realize. I know I have had a bit of an emotional hiccup over the last few weeks with multiple stimuli (that I spoke to earlier in this thread).
Holding myself accountable,
-PM
M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds
"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.
