WAS left, focusing on me, DB'ing like an amateur

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Journaling-
Spent some time last night moving more of W's stuff into a consolidated location in the garage. Was sort of therapeutic and hard at the same time.

My emotions are more consistent than they have been, I'm thinking the meds are helping even me out.

I have established an individual checking account and ordered my own credit card, I plan to stop using everything that's joint. Unfortunately, I found out both the auto loan and the mortgage are in both of our names. So to remove one party from either will require refinancing.

I won't lie, I'm a bit anxious about meeting up with her. She still hasn't answered my email, but her attorney said she wanted to talk to me, so actions aren't lining up with words.

I'm down to 187 pounds, and a woman at work told me I looked really good. No EA or anything, she's just being nice.

My family and friends have all been really supportive which has been a huge help.

I'm still in IC, AA and working to overcome all my issues. I feel so much better as a person than I did 3 months ago. This was a huge wake-up call for me all around.

I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my life- stay here for awhile to see if she comes out of her fog post-divorce, or move away and restart my own life. She had another long-term relationship that she terminated and walked away and didn't look back, so I'm not thinking that she will change her mind once it's over. She has shown some pretty strong will-power.

Anyway, working today and tomorrow, so hopefully that will keep my mind occupied. Also, been reading the book "How we love" by Yerkovich. Very interesting, I see myself in a lot of the bad love styles. Working to overcome.