Why did she not tell you what was wrong before? mMybe she did and it was like her desire to have a baby. Not listened to. Not heard.

You were a bully. You yelled. You were drinking, she was probably afraid of you.

It seems you've taken steps to turn that around. Good work but it's going to take her a long time for her to come around. if she does.

How much patience do you have? 15 years worth?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss