No, not trying to win him. Just want some moments that are stress free. Moments that not about the past, or what went wrong.

I built an island in the kitchen months ago for us. So when I cooked, we could interact, be together sharing. It was always him in his cave and me in the adjoining room or kitchen.

I wanted to connect more during the empty nesting. I figured as I finish things up , I can offer some wine. He can open and pour on the other side of island. We can just hang and talk.

We can eat in the kitchen him on one side me on the other , or we can sit down in the dining room. Whatever he wants. I just know, this is the second time he's willing to do something other than going to lunch in a restaurant.

Yesterday went well, I hope he had positive thoughts for the rest of the day and evening. That he wanted to share the place where the animals get butchered, and thought I'd like it, is a small step in the right direction.

I am interested in hunting, and personally camping too! I want to learn to use a bow, and rifle.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1jB_Jt6VtYs

Swing dance has been another of the things I like and have become a student of! So upbeat and happy, g r e a t exercise too, cardio and fitness!

I want to learn and discover SO many things. I would prefer it be with my H. I can hope ...

Who knows? I'm not trying to win anything. I just know he lost the ability to feel safe with me, I would like to build from there.


Formerly Workinprogress
H :55
M :over 29 yrs.
Together : 33
D : college
D : adult
BD and left : May 2013
Separated
Experimenting/Replay

Jan 2014...Let go of rope!


God grant me the serenity...