Not much has happened lately which sometimes I think is a good thing. It means it hasn't continued to go down hill.

No idea if he is seeing OW because I'm trying to keep myself busy. At least now he hasn't been as mean. Not overly nice but not mean. He also hasn't seen the kids much which I wish he would. That makes me think he may still be seeing her. He told the kids he's not but in the past he certainly doesn't tell them when he goes back to her.

I plan on visiting his parents again tomorrow. They seem to be happy to see me. My parents and sister saw him last weekend and he was nice to them but he didn't talk to them until they talked to him. They were very nice to him. He had no idea they were going to be at the game and I'm sure when he saw them he was worried about the reception he would get. I think he had to be pleasantly surprised how it went because I'm sure he thought I was bashing him to my family.

Still going to try and back off a little more. I have noticed that my mood has been a little better since doing that. I have also tried to stay busier. Even after all of this time though I still miss having someone to talk about my day and just what's going on. The kids are there but its not the same as a spouse.

Wonka I truly appreciate your advice on Raine's thread. All of you vets have so much to offer those of us who are in the middle of this craziness. Even though I have been going through this what seems like a lifetime I still need the help and encouragement. It is so much easier to give up. I just keep thinking about my kids.

M 48 H 50
M 25 T 27
D 20,18,15
6/11 H filed
3/12 H dropped
4/12 H moved out