Today he came home and he seemed overly happy again. I think he must've recharged somewhere, OW or something else. He then went downstairs and came back up wearing a Where's Waldo costume saying 'ok you guys ready for tonight?' and laughing. I have to admit it looked good on him and it was funny as both son and I laughed. But I said 'I have been trying for YEARS to get you to dress up!' and I have. Halloween used to be one of my fave holidays and I could ever get him to dress up...he couldn't make fun of himself or just have fun with it. Now he has a costume? I kind of felt crushed about this. Sigh.
Then afterwards we were watching tv shows and talking just like everything used to be, just like the normal stuff we used to do. It was again, weird. At one point he noticed I was taking some cold med and asked if I was sick. I just said that my head had felt funky for the past 4 days or so. So he did ask, I guess.
Then later I said I was going to go upstairs because we only had ONE trick or treater and meds made me kind of sleepy. Yes ONE. LOL kind of sad.
Then I noticed he was talking to his mom on the phone. Then I looked down later and he was texting. I'm so confused.
This MLC stuff [censored]. I feel like I should lay down some boundaries again. He still has made no mention of moving out. I admit I'm lucky that I don't have an MLC'er that spews venomous things but this quiet behavior [censored] almost as bad! I'm so very confused about how he doesn't seem to miss me. Going dim while in your own home just doesn't seem to work.
I feel like I was doing so well and then it just feels (again this word) weird because it feels normal most of the time. Is he being courteous and just going to wait me out too? Fudge, I'm confused.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
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