Taking A Stand; What's my Position?

[Mimi00]

Thanks Jon. I ended up responding 3 hrs later "ok, thanks"
He didn't reply again.

I'm feeling very tired today and a bit emotional...not sure why.
I haven't cried in over a month....but today I feel like breaking down.
But I won't.....I am trying to keep my mind busy....any down time my mind still goes to my sitch....its annoying.
I still think of my highschool boyfriend a few times a year.....so just the thought that H may be stuck in my head the rest of my life is sooo annoying.

I've been so focused in "fixing" in insides I have kind of neglected my outside and gained 10lbs. So I have to get on top of that ans start going to the gym....especially since its getting cold. The last few years...since the 2nd yr of marriage my weight has fluctuated in the winter. 1.5 years ago I gained 30lbs that I an still trying to work off. I never had this problem before...I wonder if its b/c of age....or if its tied to depression. Since it happens during winter I think it may be a season depression if so.

Just rambling/journaling....*sigh*