Jon, don't ever cringe about posting here. The people that respond are beating you with a love stick.
You are so awesome at taking everything in, and maybe you don't understand it at the moment, but to take it all in is huge. Don't expect yourself to understand it all.
I think you're conversation was awesome, and huge for your W. It sounded so wonderful, even made me tear up and I thought my tear well had run dry.
I'm so happy this step has occurred in your sitch. Your R was one sitch I had no idea as to how it would turn out. It was like watching a tv drama 'As the World Turns for Jonf'. So I am really impressed with what you have done, not done, made mistakes, made good choices and how this has all turned out so far. Keep fighting the good fight!
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.