i see and agree totally - what a stinking stupid sitch to be in- and what a mess your h's "addiction" to ole pos is...
i can't get over and can't fathom how these men can choose & love us for our independent and straightforward qualities- and then find themselves alllllll NEEEEEEDING SOME pos on the ground to NEEEEEED them and be clinging and clawing to their ankles as they fall into some stupid low-life abyss - . your h's pos HAS GOT to somehow convey that she neeeeeds him, despite what she says and does somehow , wouldn't you think???? i mean, she does call him, keep it alive - etc. even if she says no- she's participating in some significant way to keep it going.
you are kind of trapped at the moment - he knows you need a place to live and are in it- and they end up holding all those particular cards - supporting us. and we all do need somewhere to live & some $$ too. cripes
wtf exactly in the world is going on??? it's soooooo opposite what they were- what they wanted, etc.
t his is the kind of insanity that makes me re-read mwd nad think she's got something with the mlc-insanity thing.
it doesn't really give us any specific help tho, does it? just knowing this and embracing it- .
i guess they just must look in the mirror one day- see someone they don't like, not young enough? not succ3essful enough? life not "fun" enough life - etc. - wig out- look around and begin two things- blaming us because we're the person there and "saving" some "goin-down" sap that neeeeds them and LOOOOOOOOVES THEM and admires them - but mostly NEEEEEEEEEEDS THEM.
i still don't know one thing here. i wish i had some wisdom or up-beatedness to share. you're sounding good- you're sounding mad (maybe good also) , you're exploring options(also good) idk dawnie girl-
it seems to be the same old thing- one day at a time- play it by ear and respond to what happens "next" -
it's a hell of a way to live isn't it- always waiting for the other shoe to drop???
I hope your day is okay- i pray for a giant flash of light to blam your h on the head and AWAKEN HIM.
can he find a new job like the one he had- equally sufficient? or is that never an option again? is he even lookin?
