So lost and hurt #3

[indigo1]

Just had a long talk with W and set some boundaries for moving forward. We agreed to both just live our lives and be civil about things. We will still occasionally spend time together with no expectation until the year of living seperate is up. She wants me to go out and experience live without her including seeing other women if it comes to that. She again said she does not know if she will ever to get beyond the past and we will have to see what happens in time. I guess it is pretty much over for us by the sounds of it. She came to tears a few times and admitted that thinking of me with another woman hurts her but she thinks it may be necessary. I'm not giving up, but this makes it easier having laid all the cards out on the table. I told her where my heart stands right now and she knows that. We were both really calm and honest with each other about everything. She admitted she is not dating the other man but does have feelings towards him because he has been there for her during all this. He is still in a R with someone else but who knows what will happen. Looks like its time for me to let her go completely and just focus on me and my D. I never thought my life would end up like this