Guys, thank you! I've said this before, but I don't know how I would've gotten through this mess without you.
PS, I echo your sentiments toward Joe :-) He loves to tell me about his R, and he does it not realizing that what he says would hurt my feelings. He has a hard time experiencing empathy, so he mostly acts without even thinking the impact his words/actions will have on others. He said he's felt like calling me to ask for advice many times but decided against it (which shows a bit of progress...)
He is also realizing what he lost (at least a little bit.) I listen to his stories because I love him (although I would never want to be M to him anymore) plus I'm curious to see how life teaches him the lessons he refused to learn the simple, painless way. I do get angry, though. Anger is the main negative feeling that still surfaces quite often.
PM, thank you for posting on my thread! I actually wrote a book, but I don't mention all this juicy stuff. The book is for us going through this to heal--can't wait for it to be published! I should write another book about Joe's antics, and people would think it's fiction!
Ruby, thank you, thank you. Your words are always so comforting to me. I don't know whether I'll marry again, but I'm definitely better off now! I had completely lost myself, and now that I've returned to my true path, I feel elated. Yes, I'm angry at what happened, and wish I could turn back time, but I feel blessed for every second of my life now. And I have grown a lot, as you said.
