So lost and hurt #3

[indigo1]

I'm fine. I'm happy with myself right now. She is the one lost and confused. I always go to NY for a week this time of year, I'm not running away from anything. I was going to stay here this year because of everything but I changed my mind. There is no reason for me to put off my annual trip because of her. I'm not angry at her anymore, I cant control her actions and I know that. The recent findings upset me for a few hours, but I am human.

I was not affectionate and we had a major lack of communication. I have addressed those issues within myself and know I can be the way she needs me to. I may or may not get the chance to show my changes, thats in her hands. I have accepted that and I know I'll be fine no matter how this turns out. I want a new and better M with my W, but I'm prepared for the possibility that it may never happen.