upon reflection - i'd say this business of h and his kind words yesterday- is nothing more than either:
1) blowup with ow and she ditched him or proposed (wah wah i'm scared)
or
2) he's taking her to europe or some wonderful trip- a bit of "honeymoon hotel" and feeling extreme disloyalty & guilt - (wah wah i'm scared)
\no more nor less. i have no milk of human kindness going on today or any sort of illusions - or more like - disillusions abut it and him.
tooooooooo out of character. toooooo - whatever...
let the record show- this woman is not fooled- i'm back to not talkin i think- or i'll just out with it-
i'm very sorry they didn't call me to work and take me away from all this- will go out to he mall searching for work-jeans so i'm away, not thinking & beyond reach...
besides - walking to work is good but need some boots to keep the toes warm & dry .
