The Big Chill

[Pudmuddle]

I haven't posted for a few days on my sitch, just needed a break from it. No R drama lately, that's good I guess? So just journaling here.

After I asked H to take S to the ortho appointment the other day, I kept getting calls while I was at my dentist appt. Then I get a text from H saying 'Sorry forgot you were at the dentist.' How could he forget...ah, mlc fog, I had asked him to take S to his appt because I had my appt...Seriously this forgetting thing is kind of humorous at times. But after that he said that he and S had gotten into a minor fender bender in his company van. H isn't supposed to be driving this van with anyone in it, it is for business only. They were ok, but the van had some side damage. He will have to explain this to business now, oh well, not my issue.

He's been in a fairly good mood, but still has not mentioned the moving out that I'd asked a week ago. The vets were right that he probably wouldn't move out. But he has been more detailed to me in where is going and stuff. lol.

Last night he and S had their karate tests and they had to leave early from home. He sent me a phone message about this and it was quite detailed, letting me know how they had to leave early and exactly when their specific tests were. And also how one of the dogs had gotten sick in their cage again and how S had cleaned it up. I was wondering when I got home where they were so I was glad he filled me in like this. I called back to say thanks for letting me know.

I also mentioned how the one dog he left out had gotten into the trash and then came up to my bed and threw up his dinner. Ew. This is the one dog that LOVES my H and I think is feeling the stress of H not paying attention to him like he used to...poor doggie. I wished him good luck on his test and then said goodbye. H got quiet and then said ok, bye.

Then when they had gotten home, I asked H and S about their tests and they had passed. H seemed talkative and we had more small talk. Then I retreated upstairs to my room. S went downstairs to play his video games. H sat in the living room and was watching tv. Then my S started getting excited about his video game, whooping and making loud noises. My H just sat in his chair and yelled out for S to be quiet.

Keep in mind S is downstairs and the door to basement is shut, so he can't really hear anyone upstairs unless they are at the door. S continued to make loud noises and H again yelled out to him to be quiet. I just sat in my room listening to H, seemed like he was getting more and more annoyed quickly. S really wasn't that loud or annoying which was interesting. After the 3rd time, H got up and went to the door, and asked S to turn it off because H had asked him 3 times. It was interesting how annoyed he got, something seemed to be on his mind more than that. S has done this before and H has not even noticed it...

After a while H went to bed, and S did something downstairs. I heard H pound on the wall as if to say, 'stop it!'.

I went to lunch with some good friends from work yesterday and we talked about everything, it felt good. They both know my sitch and they are supportive without being judgmental. They both said they were impressed with how I was handling things.

I've been thinking about how if H did come around eventually and wanted to work on things, I wonder if I would want to. I know that's normal feeling, but I just really wonder. I think there are certain things he would have to commit to before I could even think about it.

Hope everyone on here has a drama free day!