There is no end for me, there is no reconsiliation, or apologies, or H letting go of ow in my future. My H has declared too many times that he and Ea will remain friends, and there is no REASON to change that, but he understands why I would think there is.
He is manogomous, tho he doesn't believen it anymore, he will be giving EA a small stipend to help her get by when he makes side money, and he will continue to be the person she can count on if he's able.
I'm sorry, but if that's doesn't scream time to make changes I don't know what does. I told him this is not against him but for me. We no longer live as man and wife.
I will first need to find out if it's better that I may be doing this before his retirement begins. I have a lot of questions, but I think I have been at this point for a while and talking doesn't hurt. I'll call it an education.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
