Enjoy the day doing what you want. There are really no expectations for this journey; it is what it is. Everything is going to turn out the way it's supposed to, so no use forcing it or reading much into anything. If Barbara is supposed to be in your life, she will be. If not, she's another stone closer to what you're looking for. It will happen, chillax!
Get out and play some golf! That always makes everything better...
Me 55 H 49 Married 21 years No kids bomb 5/09 filed 7/09 divorced and moving forward 5/10